please

let me just make it through these last three weeks of school
without completely destroying everything i've worked so hard for

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The Diary of a Frequent Keyboard Cleaner

Entry No. 1

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as a general rule of thumb:

i will always have the desire to blog when there is homework to do.

but i'm not going to right now.
later.
perhaps. :)

tomorrow

the first day of school
and
the first day of liz's adventure

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TRUST

that He should leave his place on high,
and come for sinners, here, to die.
you find it strange?
well so did I.
until I knew my Savior.

i am on a road trip with my family [part 3]

this is all i have to say:
thee more shallows: book of bad breaks
so good.

counting your blessings
as they hatch and grow
you'll start to feel uncomfortable
as each one takes off far away

you read them stories from the book of bad breaks,
every night, when they were sleeping safe inside their eggs.
hoping to impart at least a premonition
about the dangers they'd face.

but barely two, they're lost to you now.

i am on a road trip with my family [part 2]

today was really cool. we went on two different tours of the (beautiful) kartchner caverns here in so ar. it's pretty sweet here. it's basically the same thing as so cal but in arizona. and oh yes, i made that one up.

today, for me, was one of those days where you end up getting a glimpse of something way bigger and more beautiful than yourself.

this glimpse of mine occurred inside of these kartchner caverns. i love it so much when that happens. plus it was really cool to already know a lot about the caves from the geology class i took last semester. rocks rocks rocks.

also, this rv-cation is going 100% better than it was when i updated last. my family is really great.

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i like bats.

i like them because sometimes they live in caves.
and inside of caves, there is no light.
there's only other bats, bugs, rocks, and dark.

bats are always safe because they travel in large packs.
which also means that every bat has a lot of friends.

i like bats because they can fly.
they're not so different from us humans, you know.

i think i will spend the rest of my life figuring out how i can become a bat.
because then i will be truly happy.

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confession: i really have no idea who reads this blog anymore. well, i know some of you. but not all.

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i wonder if you do. i really have no idea. being of the avid blogger variety, sometimes it's nice to think that you still read mine. even though i hardly post anything substantial often enough to merit even a semi-regular visit. also i'm pretty sure you hate me. i think i have a problem with making some people do that. i wish you knew how sorry i am.

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previously mentioned in this blog of mine were two goals that i've set for myself.
the one about me finishing 10 songs is coming along really well.
i can't wait to get home and record moar stuffs.

buhbye

i am on a road trip with my family [part 1]

okay so RV's are weird.
at the beginning of this trip i was way more excited than i am now.
it almost seems like more of a hassle to go on vacation in an RV than just chilling at home. though i'm sure things will start go upwards on the awesome scale when we finally get to our destination. hopefully.

anyways. it's super late-ish and i just finished watching the shawshank redemption (got it for christmas wooo). this is probably the 3rd time i've seen it. and this time i was so struck with a particular message in it that i felt compelled to share my thoughts here in my blog. but i'm tired and i want to sleep soon so i'm gonna try to keep it short.

but anways, with that in mind, you should stop reading here if you've never seen it.

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okay so throughout the movie there's this idea of being institutionalized by routine, and that change from this routine is (most of the time) inevitable. and when it comes, we have to choose how we're going to deal with it.

if you don't know what i'm talking about, it's basically the contrast between brooks and red, and how they deal with being freed from shawshank after both doing a considerable amount of time there. long story short, brooks is freed after doing 50 years but quickly ends up killing himself because he can't cope with not being a part of the prison institution anymore. he became so accustomed to it that he almost completely forgot that anything else existed, and so when he was presented with freedom, the giant fear of the unknown and unusual overwhelmed him.

that, coupled with the fact that he was really old and a little crazy.

in contrast with brooks, there is red. who is released after doing 40 years, and is faced with the same overwhelming fear that brooks felt, but instead he is able to overcome it and he goes off and lives happily ever after with his best friend andy dufrain.

ack i am so tired.
if you read all of that, you're a champ.
it's hard for me to be all analytical and whatnot when i'm tired.

OKAY SO BASICALLY
what i learned/was reminded of tonight:

things change, and the best things to do are:
- recognize our inability to go back to the way things were.
- fight like hell to overcome the fear that freedom and the unknown present to us.
- this is best done by having placed your hope in something good. like God perhaps.

which coincidentally is also a part morgan freeman has played (bruce almighty).
that's weird/cool. asdfghjhfdgfh

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in other news, i'm making music and stuff.
i've been posting some of my songs on this myspace i made. they're all works in progress, so i feel reluctant to share. but feedback is a great thing, so feel free to check them out if you would like. and i would love to hear what you guys think.

www.myspace.com/kennychiwa147

goodnight!

all i see is new to me

it's good:


blakroc is a collaboration project between the black keys and a bunch of sweet hip hop artists.
awesome guys like q-tip, raewkwon, nicole wray, jim jones, and mos def. it's a freaking solid hip hop/r&b album in my opinion. but that's all i'll say about it. it's definitely worth checking out if you like hip hop.

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last night as i got into my bed, i realized that i spend far too little time in it.

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10 finished songs by the start of spring semester and biola by fall of next year.
these are my goals. say hello to them.

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try saying "pika" the second before you sneeze, it makes you sound like an angry pikachu.
also if you don't laugh when you do it, there's something wrong with you.

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that's all i've got for now.
sorry.

i can remember a time in my life when this was literally all i ever wanted.

Thailand

Hi friends!

I'm writing this to let everyone know (if you didn't know already) that I'm going to be in Thailand for the next two and a half weeks. (October 12-28)
(AND I AM SO EXCITED)

I'm going through Hume Lake Christian Camps, and we're basically going to be putting on camp for missionary kids over there. My main role will be to play drums in the worship band, but I'll also be a counselor as well. We'll be doing all this in a city called Chiang Mai. It's actually a really interesting place, you should wikipedia it if you've never heard of it.

If you want to stay updated during our trip, you can check out this link:
http://humeinternational.org/category/thailand/
It should be updated (somewhat) daily with pictures and video, so check it out if you're interested.

Also, I want to invite all of you to support me and the rest of the team by praying for us as often as you're able! Any and all prayers are graciously appreciated!

Well, I suppose that's all.
Goodbye for now!

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it's funny to me how i can be so much more fond of my doodles than the pieces that i actually spend a significant amount of time on.

life life life life life life

I don't know. Everything, it's all just very interesting.

Like how we freak out.
How things turn around.
How years of mild frustration and confusion can be resolved in a single honest conversation.
How we come together.
How we drift apart.
And most notoriously, how we miscommunicate.

For me, there's been a lot to take in over the last month or so, and I'm fairly confident that, for the most part, I've been dealing with things well. But there might be people that will disagree with that. But that's okay.

When I get over my feelings and really think about it, change is amazing.
If not for any other reason than the fact that it's a great catalyst for new and good opportunities.

Anyway, I've been pretty excited recently because I've decided to dive back into this one certain art form that I sort of drifted away from since high school.

I won't deny that it could possibly be my own way of lashing out or something.
But it's a good outlet, I promise. I'm really excited about it.
ART IS VERY FUN.

yay k bye

i dont know what to title this

Today has been profound.
Though the events of today really just ended up bringing me back to sitting here at my desk, something amazing happened today.
Today is characterized in my mind as an incredible victory. The aftermath of an amazing night that will hopefully be repeated many times in the near future.

I feel so encouraged and affirmed. More than I have in quite a while.
I am completely wrapped up in God's infectious love, so much that I kind of don't even know what to do with myself.

Today has been spectacular.

something i remembered today:

never forget and continually remind yourself of the specific instances in your life when God displays his beautiful faithfulness.

keep going forward

for the most part, i think that what i'm waiting for is also something that i have complete control over.
but i don't know if this is true.



because if it were,
i would have gotten it by now.

A Musical Excerpt From My Head

i'm going to be posting more original music in the relatively near future. promise.

oh my...

i've found myself diving deep into a band.
a band that i should have dove into much earlier than now.

anyways,
this band is called the chariot, and they are absolutely rocking my world.

i've been listening to the chariot on and off since they came out with the fiancèe in 2007.

but i saw them last friday at the scream the prayer tour. it was so dang epic.
seeing a band live always changes everything.

with my recent purchase (of the physical copy) of their latest album titled wars and rumors of wars, it is with confidence that i have allowed josh scogin to have a secure place as my current all time musical hero.

the man who started one of my favorite bands (norma jean) then leaves and goes on to start the chariot. and, in my opinion, significantly trumps norma jean in both creativity and style.

this band is certainly a keeper.
not to mention wars is just so freaking badass.

it is 100% worth it to purchase the physical copy. so dew it. D:

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in other news, disneyland with meghan and mary is not happening tomorrow. which is sadness.

also, people from NZ are great.

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Run, run farmer.
Screaming, "bloody murder".
The daughters of question have been murdered.
Deception is charming.
No, I don't think so.

These things, they harmonize and overthrow.
These things will cure;
but they will tear down.

We are not the ones who carry on.
We are not the ones who wear the shroud, tear down.

Liar.
Condescender.
Words born as bastards.
Our swords will rest, and a course in miracles will hail.

And killers will rise.
Where have we gone wrong?
Understanding laced the web.
I don't think so.

daylight

i really like staying up late.

i really like meeting new people and making friends.

i really like making videos.

i love you.

regarding the current state of iran

my friend james wrote this, i'm copying it because it expresses my heart well.



Over the last few days, I've been following #IranElection on Twitter as closely as anyone, and never in my life have I been more horrified.

After a fixed election, the majority of the civilians have taken to the street in protest, and at an increasing rate, they are being arrested and SNIPED from the tops of buildings and helicopters. They are being shanked by plain clothes Basij, the soldiers loyal to the false "leader".

But they don't stop. They protests and rallies are getting bigger every day. These people are leaving their homes and putting their lives at risk because they are tired of being beaten down on. They are tired of being prisoners. They want to be free, and the courage that they continue to show in defense of basic human rights is incredible to me. I can only hope I would do the same.

And as I wrote that last paragraph

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WsOPOmmdjZc

a man was shot in the face by a sniper. they are not fighting back, they are not using violence. they're just being killed.

i dont know exactly why i wrote this. i just care. im deeply disturbed by what's happening in Iran at this very moment but possibly even more by the fact that aside from maybe 3 of the people that I'm in some way connected to through this website, no one else does.

If you don't, fine. I can't make you. But if you do, say something. Spread the word. Innocent people are being murdered because they want freedom.

Sound familiar?