i am on a road trip with my family [part 1]

okay so RV's are weird.
at the beginning of this trip i was way more excited than i am now.
it almost seems like more of a hassle to go on vacation in an RV than just chilling at home. though i'm sure things will start go upwards on the awesome scale when we finally get to our destination. hopefully.

anyways. it's super late-ish and i just finished watching the shawshank redemption (got it for christmas wooo). this is probably the 3rd time i've seen it. and this time i was so struck with a particular message in it that i felt compelled to share my thoughts here in my blog. but i'm tired and i want to sleep soon so i'm gonna try to keep it short.

but anways, with that in mind, you should stop reading here if you've never seen it.

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okay so throughout the movie there's this idea of being institutionalized by routine, and that change from this routine is (most of the time) inevitable. and when it comes, we have to choose how we're going to deal with it.

if you don't know what i'm talking about, it's basically the contrast between brooks and red, and how they deal with being freed from shawshank after both doing a considerable amount of time there. long story short, brooks is freed after doing 50 years but quickly ends up killing himself because he can't cope with not being a part of the prison institution anymore. he became so accustomed to it that he almost completely forgot that anything else existed, and so when he was presented with freedom, the giant fear of the unknown and unusual overwhelmed him.

that, coupled with the fact that he was really old and a little crazy.

in contrast with brooks, there is red. who is released after doing 40 years, and is faced with the same overwhelming fear that brooks felt, but instead he is able to overcome it and he goes off and lives happily ever after with his best friend andy dufrain.

ack i am so tired.
if you read all of that, you're a champ.
it's hard for me to be all analytical and whatnot when i'm tired.

OKAY SO BASICALLY
what i learned/was reminded of tonight:

things change, and the best things to do are:
- recognize our inability to go back to the way things were.
- fight like hell to overcome the fear that freedom and the unknown present to us.
- this is best done by having placed your hope in something good. like God perhaps.

which coincidentally is also a part morgan freeman has played (bruce almighty).
that's weird/cool. asdfghjhfdgfh

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in other news, i'm making music and stuff.
i've been posting some of my songs on this myspace i made. they're all works in progress, so i feel reluctant to share. but feedback is a great thing, so feel free to check them out if you would like. and i would love to hear what you guys think.

www.myspace.com/kennychiwa147

goodnight!