a collection of eukaryotic heterotrophs.

i really hope they play this one:

[guys eyes - AC]

iamsofreakingexcited.
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:D :D :D :D :D

farewell fire

[boc]


it was really real.

and it was so just being down there.

but also,
it was putting it down, and lighting it.
then running away.

spewing a shimmering beauty, but ending quickly.
i guess it had to.

what an interesting way to start the summer

i agree.

yay

yesterday was great.
today will be fun as well.
and i'm actually looking forward to tomorrow with almost everything in me.

:D

lulz

i thought of something funny earlier today.

however it is likely that someone has already thought of this somewhere out there.

either way, i want to document it. i'm not really sure how.
i tried, and i couldn't really make it into a joke. maybe it would be something on those dumb t-shirts. yeah whatever, i'll just pretend it's a t-shirt. it would look like this:

the word "asthma", and beneath it is a drawing of an inhaler with roses laying behind it, and a caption below that that says "you take my breath away"


^-^


lame i know.

i think it's hilarious.

oh...

hmm.

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Lots of doors have closed, but I'm starting to see new ones open.
It's encouraging.

---

I want to make a video during the month of freedom I have between the end of finals (which is this wednesday ahh) and the beginning of summer classes.

However, getting a new hard drive means I no longer have imovie 06 (or garageband). Which makes me really sad. But maybe this will give me an excuse to save up for something (much) better. Like logic or something. I should probably learn how to use those complicated music programs anyway...

But maybe I can still find a way to get garageband. n_____n

What was I talking about? Yeah, imovie 06. I want it really bad. I would save up for final cut, but I would always feel like I could never use it to it's maximum potential. If I bought it with my own money I mean. I'm not a film major or anything. imovie works just fine.

Except imovie 08 is actually the worst excuse for video editing softwhere ever D:

whatever

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Boards of Canada is most likely becoming my new favorite band for now. I'll probably let you guys know if anything official happens. (lulz)

Their music is really beautiful though. They do an incredible job of painting a unique visual picture with their music.

If you've never listened to them, I would recommend starting with The Campfire Headphase. It's a wonderful album.

I won't try to sell them to you. This music is really worth an honest listen.

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Well.
I guess that's all for now.

This was a nice little break from studying.
Though I probably shouldn't be taking breaks because my final is in four (freaking) hours.

D:

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check out this album. it's really good.

i'm starting to...

Right now I'm in the very beginning of the long aftermath of one of the more emotional nights of my life. What happened is simple, but what it means is complex and difficult.

Last night began with my biology class, and with the fear and anticipation of whether or not I'm going to pass it. I can't help but feel like a colossal failure whenever I think about it, since this was supposed to be the semester that I do better than any other semester before. It looks like I still haven't learned much...

When I got home from class I found a letter for me on the kitchen counter. The letter was from Biola. I didn't get in.

It's not all bad, though at the same time, it kind of is. It's not a "rejection notice" the letter said, but more of a "wait notice". They decided it would be in my best interest to spend another year at community college, completing at least 24 transferable units while maintaining a GPA of 2.5 or more, and then reapply for the fall of 2010. But the thing is, I don't want to freaking wait that long. Restlessness is no longer creeping in, it's fully here and all around me. I don't like living at home. I don't like working at Islands. and I freaking hate Miramar.

But in those very thoughts God calls me out and reminds me in the weirdest way, that He loves me profoundly.

Not only am I probably over-reacting, but I've realized that within the last few months I've been getting what I deserve a lot. I've been experiencing the difficult and tangible repercussions of almost every major mistake I've made within the last two years or so. Needless to say, it's really hard. But the worst thing to do in this situation would be to forget that all of this is a trial, and that only by going through it will I be formed into a more Godly man. Complacency is no longer welcome in my life now. I will reject passivity and accept these challenges until I reach the next step in my life: graduating Biola.

Last night ended with strange and overwhelming mix of sadness, anger, and fear, and yet some comfort, while I stared into the face of the most beautiful indian I've ever seen.

God is so good to me.

i'm starting to...
believe the ocean's much like You.
because it gives and it takes away.

These past few weeks...

1

I have nothing to fear anymore. Life is genuine, God is so good.
I'm very thankful for my beautiful friends. I've made quite a few new ones. They're all so great. And there's one in particular that I really hope will be with me for a long time. I have a good feeling that she will.

2
God has been giving me wisdom and discernment. Wisdom with girls and music more than anything else really. I've been realizing that the passion He put in me to play (music) for people is just that, something He put in me. I think it would be unwise of me to stifle this desire of mine, so I've been pursuing it rigorously.

3
I have a consistent source of accountability and brotherhood in my life. God has been using him greatly to be a profound encouragement to me, it's amazing. For now, it happens entirely over the phone. Sometimes it kills me, but I'm glad I can say "for now" because I basically always want to give him an enormous hug after every conversation.

4
I've discovered a peaceful place. I love it and I love the people. I feel passionately called to serve at this place for a time. So I will.

5
I confidently believe that it's in God's will for me to attend Biola and study philosophy. As far as getting in goes, I plan to attend sometime next year. I applied for the fall semester, but haven't found out if I'm in or not yet. I was told that I would hear from them by this monday...which basically means that I'm very nervous.

6
My musical palette recently has included the following:

Fleet Foxes
Radical Face
Boards of Canada - The Campfire Headphase
Norma Jean - O' God The Aftermath
Mew - A Triumph For Man

7
I love you all. Blessings! :)